Just wondering, how painful is a heartbreak right after a break-up? I haven't experienced it, and I never, ever want to. Is it painful beyond words? Something that cannot explained until you experience it yourself? Does it really take two hands to clap? And how do people begin loving someone else? And, how can feelings just come, and go?

How do couple hurt each other until there's nothing left to hurt? How do a person know if someone is meant for them? Do they know how to differentiate love, lust, and like? Why is everyone so afraid of 'first love'? Yes, it's something one can never forget, but why do I hear people saying, "No way you're going to marry your first boyfriend lah!" ?

It's somewhat a trend to do love-break-patch-love routine - Obviously something I detest. What is the point? Good make-up sex (this is plain dumb)? Stronger love each time they get back together? "If it's meant to be, he'll come back to you"? Dumb shit, seriously nonsense.

I'm happy, really. Very very very happy in love, to be honest. It's just that, the thought of it is making me shit bricks. Haha, shit bricks.