“Life as it is”

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You think I'd give a crap, whether she was thin last time, and whether she's so much fatter now or whatever?

Labels: daily muse, happy, reblogged

1. Harindra loves this song, so hey this is for you!
2. I made him a happy man today.
3. I wish I had a driving license. Raining almost every day.
4. School's at 9am tomorrow. Yay.

Labels: harindra, school, short

OH MY GOD URGHURGHRUGRHUGRH I WANT TO KILL MYSELF.
Fuck shit, Bully H Bully H Bully H, enough already sia. Fucking shit sia suck cock and suck boobs urgh
cibai
Ya, I'm going to delete this post when I feel a tad happier. but for now, URGH I WANT TO KILL MYSELF CAUSE I'M SO STUPID

This is just a random post, and it's absolutely unimportant :) It's just what I want to do in the future. No big deal, hehe.

I did have thoughts of quitting school, because I find it so tiring to be a studying-robot, and my grades are not excellent. But y'know, doing that will just make me an impulsive failure. Everyone around me is experiencing the same thing, because that's the way Singaporeans are just are. We are not really that bright, it's just the matter whether or not you are hardworking enough to memorise all the craps that you'd probably not going to remember, say, the day after your exams. What, those with GPA 4.0 are all smartypants? Yeah, I guess the word 'clever' is indeed very subjective, but the words 'smart' and 'hardworking', such a contrast :) I kind of sound defensive? But I really find it so tiring to study so much. And from what I've observed, it's not that hard getting into a uni for 'A' levels students, no matter how bad their results are!! How unfair. Okay what's my main focus of this blabberings? My what-to-do-in-the-future-if-i-even-have-a-future.

Dropping out might not be the best option, but I was thinking, di sebalik the bad grades and the almost giving-up, ada hikmahnya. Allah is great. My SIP/MP is not going to be in-house, and it's gonna be done right after 3.2, and BPharm is next semester, which means that the remaining 3 subjects can be done by the end of 3.2! The Almighty has made my life so much easier, and I'm sure he's happy that I'm still going strong. I know I know, it's nothing big, it's just a small challenge that God has given me, that's all.

I was thinking: quit school, work as animal trainer, anywhere just to get the experience and joy, and not just think of it as a 'job'. Working with animals have always been my dream (ok fake, I wanted to be an accountant last time, but I realised that it's just gonna be about work work work and no fun. I also wanted to be in the arts, but I think nah, superficial happiness) Come on, do you really want to to earn money without a smile on your face? _|_ haha! I want to work at Singapore Zoo, I want to work at Night Safari, I want to work at adoption centres, I want to work at neighbouring countries, Idk where else I want to work at, hahah! I just want to be happy.

I do have doubts, whether or not I want to further my education. Contradicting like fuck -_- See whether my grades can make it or not lah.

You know why I'm doubting or not? This is silly lah, but I just want to stay alone for a while away from evverryyboodyy (study at overseas, lol that's what I'm trying to say. And I expect my loved ones to surprise me and visit me!) (of course not away from Hari cause by then we'd get married hahahah) and I want to sleep in a bed with thicckkk bedsheets, looking out at the window with a sad face (cause I miss my family so fucking much) and looking at unfamiliar surroundings. I just want to get the picture right, that's all.

Oh, and I think it's such a stupid ___________. One of the practicals I had was like, 4 happy smiling rabbits that got euthanised (if you don't know, Idk what to say. haha! Inject for the poor thing to die, die you poor little thing, die cause we are evil like that) JUST SO THAT WE FUCKING HUMANS CAN LEARN THE WAYS TO CUT THEIR BODIES UP, SO WE CAN SEE WHAT THE INSIDES LOOK LIKE. I know why we have to learn this, and the importance of this, but no way I'm going to do all that. It's just too sick for me. The importance of it, well, I'll never let anyone touch my dead pets, no matter how mysterious their death can be. Let them rest in peace, and don't question God's actions. You want to act smart now ahhhhhh! No offence, Dr. Jomer, you're different cause you're a cool teacher.

Whoever thinks that cutting up animal is fun, eeeeeee go fuck yourself. or I'd shove a cucumber up your asssssssss then put it into your mouth. And don't eat shark fin soup, please.

Labels: rants, school

Labels: daily muse, short

Labels: love, Love stories, short

3. Collected my specs, so cheap, only $75! But the degree's too high for me, so I'm just going to use it if I sit at the back of the class.

Labels: highlights, moving images, random, rants

I enjoyed myself today. BBQ. First day of school tomorrow. I love you all xoxo


I mean, who doesn't? Omg this is picture perfect. Perfect. P e r f e c t
Go on, read my Plurks. At the end of the day, I'm a happy girl, and I'm awesome. I have Harindra, and I have my awesome family. Thank you Allah :)

Labels: happy, love, reblogged, with love

Labels: love, Love stories

forever. and ever. xoxo (': my little babies are going to be alright...

Labels: cats, with love

I was so eager to sleep just now. Hmm I don't know why, maybe cause IT'S 4.32AM NOW!? But you know what, I'm such a confused child, and it all started the moment I logged in my TP student portal to check my new time-table. I wanted to use the term 'check out' but it sounded cool for such a lame ass time-table that I got. It's too late for me to realise how lost I am. I'm retaking 2 modules, and if I fail any one of them, I might be kicked out of TP, which is a big deal (just not THAT hugeass deal like what those typical highly-educated Chinese family think) I'm not being racist, but come on, let's talk some sense here, shall we?

Anyway, what's more important now is that I'll be a loner surrounded with enthusiastic classmates that are this close *show you 1mm between index finger and thumb* to graduation. If Daryl was beside me just now, I think he'd ask me to shut up haha! Oh, and why a loner? Because there's no

• Amanda Raj
• Harindra Ram Bhattacharjee
• Nurasyikin Amir

What am I gonna doooooooooooo? I want to cry now but you know, I'm really really happy that I can still see Amanda during MGEN and ACM. That's the very least I ask for. Seriously, I don't wanna be stuck with K2 cause they are too smart and I feel so damn stupid. I'm still not used to poly system, mothafcuk' yikes. No Syikin, but I'm sure she'll be at ITAS once in a while, and I can meet her anytime I want to. No Harindra? No Harindra? No Harindra? Yeah you get it. I'm going to shoot myself. Haha

Syikin's chatting with me now, telling me that Nelly Furtado's hot and stuff, but I can't focus. I'm so freaked out about school, and I don't know why I'm THIS freaked out?

Oh, and I'm officially going to hate Mondays and Tuesday. Fuck Monday Blues? Well then, screw you. I have the whole day of school without any single break. And on Thursday, I'm going to have a long break. 3 hours long. If Amanda's not going to be free, then I'll sleep, or do something productive. No, no sleeping time for me. I won't let my 2.1 history repeat itself. Yes people, 2.1 I would skip ALL lectures to sleep in the library, and that lifestyle was awesome hahahaha gomgzz no.

Have to buy notebooks and nice files and nice stationeries and, erm, whatever else that will make me a happy girl on the first day of school.

btw I love Felix, Monza, Junior, Renee, Puma.

Labels: rants, school

oh my God. he's the best person in the world, ever! :D

Labels: random, short

I found 2 amazing websites for holga, lomo and polaroid cameras. I shall wait until 5th May (Daiso pay!) and I shall get myself one.
Yesterday evening was so horrible. And it's regarding my cats. Tsk I have no right to screen-named myself Miss Koshka. Wtf.

Labels: date, sushi, with love

Imma dye & highlight my hair again. Maybe. Nothing bright, just dark maroonish kinda colour. Yes?

Labels: holidays, random, school, with love

AISYAH! said...
Cheating.
Once a cheater, always a cheater?

The trust might be gone for a while, but if you can actually feel his love during the relationship, if he treats you right and make you feel extra special (and by this, i'm not JUST referring to sweet talks & cheesy stuff. I'm talking about the real substance - LOVE), then no, I guess not. He might have his reasons, whatever it is, I strongly believe once a cheater is NOT always a cheater :) IF HE'S WHAT I DESCRIBED ABOVE hehe


Is a kiss cheating?

Cheeks? no. Lips, yes I think it's cheating.

Second/third/fourth chances?

Not that manyyyy chances! The guy will so definitely take advantage of you. Second chance is okay, but I think once history repeats itself, show him who is more powerful :)

Would you tell your partner if you cheated - would you want them to tell you?

Yes cause honesty is the best policy, cliche as it seems. Even if the cheating's for a while, and you think like, "nah it ended anyways so let's just not bother" think again cause you're wrong. I know some of my friends hid things from their partners cause they wanna avoid arguments and stuff, but hey, I just think that's not the right attitude. Hmm gotta face the music, I guess? =/

& the hearts all over the world tonighttttt
bye! xoxo

Labels: Love stories, reblogged

I totally forgot to blog about this: I played Who Wants To Be A Millionaire on facebook yesterday, and I've learnt a few things.

• mercury has the hottest surface
• birmingham is the second largest city in Britain, London being the largest. 
• bees see blue flowers better
• copper + zinc = brass (ok fine, I forgot this, Mdm Yaw)
• Gunsmoke took place at Dodge City, hmm not that it matters haha
• a $3.75 billion settlement has been reached to pay people injured by the diet pill combination known as fen-phen
• olympic swimming pool uses 8 lanes
• abraham lincoln was the 16th president of united states

Labels: forwarded facebook, random

Tomorrow might be the big day. I got to be strong, I have to!

(This paragraph is so, wow, wordy and blahblahblah!)
ANYWAY these past few days have been awesome. I've been a good daughter (Occasionally I'll mop the house, and sometimes, I'd vacuum the house too!) Somehow, I just love mopping so much, like I can mop the house on a daily basis, yikes! Oh, I've also been a good cousin, and I had fun with my little ones - Husna and Haziq. Haziq slept over last night, and he just looovveeee hugging me. He's 7 this year, and I guess the whole hugging and lying-on-top-of-me have to stop real soon, otherwise it'd just be odd, haha thoughtssss. So yes, pretty much proud of myself for rejecting two sheesha offers from friends for my family, and myself. Saying no to sheesha? I'm awesome like that. Oh, and I went to JB with my mom and elder brother Iwan that day, and I nearly lost our passports!! I was the only one carrying a bag, and hence the passports were with me. And me being me, I just stood up and walked straight to Dunkin Donuts with my mom, totally forgot about the bag. Tsk I know it's insane but instead of thinking of passports, I was thinking of 2 things. Phone and Harindra. A lil' cuckoo there, huh? But I had donuts, so I was a happy girl~

Went to have sushi with Harindra just now, and pictures will be upload soon, prolly tomorrow. Just now was awesome, and I can't wait to date again. Oh and if you read this blog, let me tell you a lame secret:

Harindra and I are in a relationship lah. The whole 'best friends' thing is because, well, we ARE in fact bestest of friends (I'll admit it, he's pretty much my best girl friend too!!) but people always thought we're siblings or best friends and stuff (cause we don't really hold hands in front of people we know) so we would like to entertain them a bit :) And perhaps confuse them. Also, we like to be labeled 'best friend' so any "i love you" would sound more friend-ish and welcoming, rather than mushyyyyyy you feel me?

It's like, 3.30 in the morning, and I don't feel like sleeping just yet. But I loveee typing with this slight "lightness" in my head, cause I love reading it afterwards, like the next time I'm bored or something.
It's like, looking at pictures taken of you getting drunkkkk

Say what? Ba-zing-ga

RANDOM PHOTOS!

Labels: daily muse, pictures, random, rants, with love

School's timetable is not out yet, how retarded. Everyone is left with 3.1 and SIP in 3.2 and then they'll be out. For good. With a diploma. How lucky it is to be them. Serve me right for not studying hard or smart enough. Serve me right to have lost the focus and motivation. Hmmm =/ I guess I'm just unlucky, and I got to deal with it. Maybe ada hikmah di sebalik all these? Like, hmms my GPA won't be as horrible? I used to have 3.something, then it dropped a lot. Friends went all, "wth you didn't maintain that 3-point-something!" well how would I know, right? I'm not a psychic, and I'm a human after all. I make mistakes, and so I guess I have to live with it. Lesson learnt? God knows if I'mma lose my motivation again, ah damn it.

So anyway, I have 1 week of holidays left, and then it's school again. I'm somewhat excited, cause I want the upcoming semester to be over and done with. How advanced, right? HAHA IT HASN'T EVEN STARTED YET! But erm, I guess that's the spirit?

I'm going to have sushi later, with Harindra. Either at Ramen Ten Century Square, or Hei Sushi at Downtown East. Yeah, have to travel to the east cause Harindra has some things to do. I feel like wearing heels. Oh, and acne is pulling my confidence even lower. I shouldn't have started ____ tsk big mistake, huge huge hugeass mistake. Now I'm an ugly duckling. Let me make myself feel even worst.


I love pulling myself down, cause whenever I look at myself in the mirror, I'd just hate myself. Hahahaa
Just get back up when it knocks you down, xoxo

Labels: rants, story of my life, with love

Hey, I've changed my blogskin (duh...) and yes, I hope you like it as much as I do.
So anyway, I'm so hungry right now, but I'm too lazy to cook myself anything.

This is the official music video, but damn Youtube's being real strict. Click on it for full orgasm, hahah!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g8s-P9nFmLs&feature=related
I'm ignoring the fact that this song does remind me of a friend, who has long disappeared in everyone's lifes, haha, erm what's the link? Simply because he told me he got addicted to this song because of me.

Thanks to Haikal, my bloco friend, for posting this song up on Facebook. Damn he always posts awesome songs!
Don't mind me, please. it's 4 in the morning after all.

So here's dedicating a song to my special person. Boyfriend or best friend, it doesn't matter, this song is for you Harindraaa! Thanks for alwaaaaays telling your friend Akmal about me, I bet he's bored of it already! But it's okay, at least you guys are not talking about other girls. So yes, thanks for alwaaaays telling him why you love me so much, why I'm so important in your life, why you've missed me so much ever since you've worked full-time, and that I'm your everything.
❤❤❤❤❤ 6❤ 7❤ 8❤ 9❤
You have no idea how special you are to me. Dear Harindra, you will never lose me, I will always be your best friend no matter what.

Labels: love, song, with love

Eugene says:

• can help pass this msg ard
• Step1: click on this link: http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=3749832&id=104516187837&fbid=382861867837#!/photo.php?pid=3749832&id=104516187837&fbid=382861867837 
• Step2: login ur account
• Step3: go to |Colorful Photography's Profile
• Step4: Click Become a fan button
• Step5: click in to Morgan Faith Chor picture
• Step6: click on like.
• thanks!

Kindly (:


These pictures make me soooo happy :]
I'm alive and kicking.
& I feel like kicking that pompuan gemok's saggy butt. Such an ass, hahahahah!

p/s fyeahrooms

Labels: love, reblogged

Thanks for
taking care of me
buying food & drinks for me even tho' you're tired, just cause y'know that I'm sick and weak
making me smile
the love
the many many months of laughters & joy
everything. friends, to boyfriend, to best friends... everything
being yourself, as always. <3

Labels: with love

where are you i miss you let's meet even though i'm not feeling alright

I CAN ALWAYS TAKE CARE OF MYSELF,
But I want to meet the person who can prove to me that I can't.

I think I’ve met the person. Haha I was so Miss Independent last time, thinking that girls rule and boys drool (haha!) but y’know, it’s nice to know that there’s always that someone to take care of me whenever I’m sick, someone other than my mummy, of course. & that person is…

*drum roll*

my bestfriend Harindra! Yippedyyayyyy! He’s so awesome, aiya no need to find boyfriend already lah haha!

Labels: reblogged, with love

♥♥♥♥♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
what a wonderful world~

Boy:
goodnight love!

Girl:
goodnight uuuuuu!

Boy:
sweet dreams!

Girl:
sleep tight!

Boy:
sleep tiight
my eyes berat already
hahaha

Girl:
and take care of urselffff cause imma mish eu shooo muchyyy

Boy:
i love u!
haha
so cute

Girl:
i know! hahaha

Boy:
mishiusomuchtooy baby
hehe

Girl:
ur spelling FAIL
hahaha

Boy:
haha

Girl:
okay dah dah dah
(secret code) ♥ ♥

Boy:
dah dah
(secret code)

Girl:
love u!

Boy:
bye bye baby girl!
i love you too!

Girl:
byebyeeeeee

Labels: conversations, love, with love

Ok it's official.

I'm sick. I've been sneezing non-stop and my throat is so dry and, err, weird. I'm kind of shivering, and my eyes are so so so heavy and it's not cause I want to sleep or anything like that. I need my happy pills, if you know what I mean. If only On a happy, positive note, this Saturday is Sushi Day for me and my RS friends! I'm so excited.

Apitos tomorrow. I hope I'll be alright by then...

Now, goodnight.

Labels: random, sick