I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone

“Life as it is”

Sycophants and scary nightmares.

Thursday, December 31, 2009 || 2:06 AM

I still have you with me. I've got nothing to worry about. Everything is fine. Aisyah, it's just a bad, bad nightmare...

It was just a dream, thank God it was just a dream. A better word for it is nightmare, because it definitely was one. The moment I opened my eyes, I stared at the wall, trying to adapt to reality. I told my mother about the dream, and my voice trembled. She told me not to worry, it's just a nightmare. Besides, dreaming something like that is trying to show that you want that person to live long. Such contradictory statement. I told my mom that I don't feel like going lecture, and that she should wake me up at 9am instead. I couldn't go back to sleep at first, with my heart beating that fast, with my palms all sweaty. My mind was racing, kept playing the 'rewind' and 'play' button. Of the dream. I teared, then I cried.

I cried myself to sleep. The dream felt so real, and I hate myself for having such nightmares.

And then when I managed to sleep again, I dreamt of something so wonderful. And the momentary breakdown was gone. It was a "Happily Ever After" ending instead, and I ain't going to complain.

I am very much thankful.
Thank you, Harindra.

DOUBLE U TEE EFFFFFFFF! DOUBLE U TEE EFFFFFFF! DOUBLE U TEE EFFFFFFFF...

I'm an 18 year old girl, who is very much in love with a funny guy who can make me laugh every single day. I am well endowed with youthful energy, and is of an extremely sanguine temperament. But seriously, seeing people like you in life, mak aiii, buat darah naik sia. All the energy will just be gone, gone with the wind. Poof. You asses are making me laugh so hard till I wet my pants. It's not whether I'm being fastidious or not, but seriously, it's amazing to see how people can change for ____ and worst, to get _____. Did you know, I just learnt a new word? Find hard for that one word that pretty much summarises everything.

Get married young, be a young mom and a housewife. Do what the heart desires.

I have no idea why but...
If I really get married at a young age and become a young mom, you'd probably see me sitting down like this in front of the mirror putting make up on,

and my hot husband *cough hot hari cough* sitting down like that watching me.

I know it's random, but I gotta feeling.... HAHA
nah, forget about what I just said...

Where are you celebrating your countdown at?
Siloso Beach Party? Ok, I see you tonight babies.

Labels: bitch, dreams, love

such asses in life

Wednesday, December 30, 2009 || 1:08 AM

Here's a shoutout. Hear me out.
a huge

DOUBLE-U-TEE-EFF
and I shall add Farah Jimat's
"MOTHERRRRRRRRRRR"

blah blah blah

Tuesday, December 29, 2009 || 2:16 PM

I'm going to be welcoming the New Year at Siloso Beach Party.
Oh so effing awesome!

Some people are so frigging bossy and irritating. If you think you're so smart and right, then good for you. Stop being judgmental. My advice to you is, get a life.

HAPPY PILLS

awesome. I just checked my email. I can rest today! Until Chingay's practice, that is.

Wake me up only when he's here

|| 1:23 AM

When I woke up this morning, I saw you looking at me. Thinking that it was my mother, I said, "8am..." because the night before, you agreed to come over at 7.30am and wake me up. It's the first day of school, and I wanted the man of my dream to be the first thing I see. Cheesy much, yet it's so random that it gave me quite a shock. You then said, "Aisyah," and I realised that it's not my mother, it's you. And the best thing is? It's not a dream.

I haven't been online for a while, and my karma at Plurk has dropped. Big deal. Anyway today's the first day of school, and it has been, err, pretty draggy. I'm still in my holiday mood and I so didn't want to go to school. A note to God, please make 24 hours seem like 24 minutes, and yes, obviously I'm asking you to fast forward time a little bit. A note to boyfriend, study hard work hard and play hard. Marry me and I shall be the happiest wife and young mom, ever.

HAHAHHA

Life is good, if only it goes my way.

B-I-M-B-O

G'night!

P/S I went to school by bike today. I'm safe home now, Alhamdulillah.

P/P/S Why the hell are we still in the honeymoon period ah, Harindra? It feels so f*king awesome, but it's weirdly scary.

Labels: love, school

This is my cat, and his name is Sugar.

Saturday, December 26, 2009 || 11:40 PM

Some Koshka lovin' to Sugar!

HELLO YALL! LIFE SUCKS CAUSE SCHOOL'S ON MONDAY AND I THINK I'M AWESOME FOR NOT DOING ANY ASSIGNMENTS (:

Is your favourite colour blue?

|| 1:31 AM

Dear Mr Musician,

You saved my life, and for that,

here's a virtual hug/kiss from me to you.

And to ALL,
I know it's a day too late, but Merry Christmas!
Here's something, I hope our "nice" facial expressions have made you smile (:

to Harindra, who is a fantastic undiscovered musician,

thanks again. You are so awesome, ftw!

Labels: Haha I know the answer since the very beginning.

Anyone who's bored of the Beyonce's cover on my blog, do tell. (:

Wednesday, December 23, 2009 || 2:28 AM

She's freaking hot.

To those who want to know what I did today,

I woke up and rode AaravBaby to Speedway to pay my dad's bike's instalment, and I am indeed aware that "rode AaravBaby" sounds, well, wrong.

ANYWAYS,

then I went to NTUC Fairprice with Harindra to buy stuffs for BBQ tomorrow,

then I went to Kampong Glam's Cafe to have lunch with Harindra,

then we went to Pyramid Restaurant for sheesha, and we ordered Grape Mint on Ice,

Harindra left at 4.45pm for work, and Syikin and I sheesha-ed till 6.30pm

then we had Bloco Practice at Old PA HQ until 11pm

And then I had late dinner with Harindra at Kampong Glam Cafe,

and I reached home at 12 plus close to 1.

I dislike that kind of post, whereby there's "oh today I did this, and that, and this, and that" crap!

P/S Stop _ up.

Suck like a straw, blergh!

P/P/S I have been bitching so crazy much about you. I'm starting to dislike you. Urgh

P/P/P/S Extra bitchy today. What the hell?

goodnight, sleep tight, don't let the bedbugs bite!

Labels: daily muse

In summary, you're more than just that special someone.

Monday, December 21, 2009 || 10:45 PM

Thank you, for being my Guardian Angel.

Going to sleep early tonight!

I had such an awesome afternoon with some Samba lovings.

I had such an sweet evening with Harindra.

Harindra... jyeah. mysmiley.net, people!

Goodnight world.

Life has been wonderful. I haven't done my assignments, though.

Labels: daily muse

Random post

|| 12:52 AM

Nah, not looking at the couple, but the

awesomestcutesthotesthardesttofindhereinSingapore
vehicle beside them!

Labels: volkswagen

Syikin, freaking made my early morning!

Sunday, December 20, 2009 || 3:09 AM

You: damn gotta go. im gona kill myself soon bye.
Stranger: holla
Stranger: im sorry about that
Stranger: DO JUMP
Stranger: DONT**
Stranger: AHHHHH
You: =(
You: i need to end my life..
Stranger: no dont
Stranger: please!
You: the worlds better off without me..
Stranger: thats selfish of you! think of your loved ones!

You is Syikin, and Stranger, well, is a stranger.

Labels: omegle

Today's date is 19th Dec.

|| 2:36 AM

Today has been a wonderful day! (: After a whole afternoon at my relative's wedding, my date fetched me for my, erm, date. But before that, took baby Aarav out for a small walk.

By looking at the picture below, any guess where we both went to?

Went to Orchard glory Orchard! How nice, on a Saturday night.

Not. Freakin' crowded!

Immediately bought Double Chocolate Frappe (McCafe) and off we went to "tour" the lightings since I brought along Papa's camera.

(I think this picture is coooooool! Like y'know, to write quotes and stuff! Padahal lighting at that point of time was bad -_- Hah)

Haha this is my date for today. I'm sorry, date, because this picture is so candid and you didn't have enough time to pose properly. But this is good enough, I swear!

Ok, then there was some miscommunication, and he surprised me with this :

Ben&Jerry's @ Dempsey Hill! Got ourselves Belgian Waffle with 2 scoops of ice-cream, that is Sweet Cream and Cookies, and Vanilla. And, 2 small Cookies&Cream Snowblend.

Amazingggggggg, but of course, a tad too expensive for ice-creams. But definitely worth it. There was also a live performance, by this, er, dude.

This post is short and I cheated by using extra large pictures, haha! Now, a short note for my date:

Dear Date,

DON'T TELL MY BOYFRIEND PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! Right.
I had so much fun with you. Thank you.

With love, Aisyah.

Labels: date, love

B-O-R-E-D

Friday, December 18, 2009 || 3:07 AM

This post is a short one, and it's all about boredom. My Boredom.
I'm so freaking bored, and I have no idea why I am still using my laptop at this hour. I mean, there's always another option for me, which is TO SLEEP! Even Harindra cousin slept on me while texting - you're busted dude. Hah!
Anyway, y'know, I'm so bored, I'm talking to Monza, cause he was snoring.
And then my brother Yan and I had a small talk about his snoring. double-u-tee-eff.
I'm so bored, that I wanted to post this on facebook, "Who else is online? Talk to me, I'm bored!"
Then I went to see the chat thingy on facebook, 34 people are online! I saw Syikin's name, and whooooop, chatting with her on MSN now.
Y'know, I'm so bored.
I think I should sleep soon.
This post is so unnecessary and also such a waste of space.

Tumblrisforfaggots is awesome like double-u-tee-eff!

|| 1:54 AM

Like what you see? I find this pretty wicked, not that it's a good thing. Hah!

Ok, crude, that's the right word!

And this, do you like this?!

Pretty creative aye?

This is 18-year-old Taylor, who replied Amanda's post at Formspring by saying that he loves us too.

:) :) :) :) :) :) :)

Go to his tumblr(clickme!) cause he'll make your day. Trust me.

Another Short One...

Thursday, December 17, 2009 || 5:00 PM

I'll be meeting the girlfriends soon. I can't wait :) In fact, I can't wait for so many things. Currently, life has been very good, but I know I shan't be complacent, so just happy it is. People with Twitter &/ Plurk, FOLLOW! For latest updates, ftw!

Having Bloco later. Ahmad said he'd send us the mp3 yesterday, but I haven't get it yet!
Ok nothing to update, just that the first kitten has opened his eyes. Woopeeee~

I hope to marry my this blood brother of mine. Ok just kidding. We are not siblings! We are cousins.
double-u-tee-eff.

Short one.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009 || 7:26 PM

Day out with Yan.

For a purpose, of course.

And I'm so freaking excited.

I can't wait.

I'm meeting Harindra soon.

Bye.

Show some koshka lovin'!

|| 3:44 AM

Some of my cats' pictures. after some editing(s).
Two of the three kittens.

p/s btw right now mom is deciding whether or not to give my friend the cat ): I mean, of course I want to give her the cat since she wants it a lot (as a friend at home and to loovveee) and I can't stand her staying alone in that house, but yes it's true, it's sad to separate the kitten from the mother. Time will tell. I didn't know mom is this loving. Hah! But if, just if, that kitten stays with us, I will help you get a kitten okay! We'll find the kitten together! I feel like bull. ):

Anyways!

The eldest kitten was moving so much, so couldn't capture a nice photo of him/her.

Felix, dad of four 3-year-old cats.

Handsome ah! And this is Sugar, the tomcat who looks so pretty, hence the name. We all thought he was a she. Hah!

Miss Koshka wants to go to sleep already. It's 3.40am.

G'night!

Labels: cats

Lovesick?

|| 3:15 AM

"Just because a woman is lovesick doesn't mean she has to take the first pill that comes along"

Very true, so so true.
So girls, please, don't be too willing...

double U - tee - eff

|| 2:25 AM

Shayne Ward is the awesomest bald singer, ever!
Sexy video, and a nice song. Can't beat 'Breathless', of course, but awesome awesome awesome shizzle.

Labels: Shayne Ward

Updates!

|| 2:16 AM

I've added Plurk! Join me okay!
I've changed the skin, just minor changes. But I don't know how to change the colour of "Read more >>"!
It's okay, I'll live with it.
I'm supposed to be sleeping right now, but I'm not that sleepy yet.
This is super random, and I don't know if you're up for this but...

I have a favourite bra that I wear almost everyday. Keyword is almost, stupid. Eww I know, but it's getting so much tighter and I feel it's time for a new one, a new favourite one. Do you recommend Triumph? I don't wear cheap bras, because it will make me so effing uncomfortable. I need help. I'm the only girl in the house, beside my mom, that is.

silly dog don't deserve this.

Monday, December 14, 2009 || 10:52 PM

One day you are walking along the road, and you saw something brown and big lying on the road.

It's a dog, on the road.

"Silly dog, you don't sleep on roads!"

But then you realised that it's bleeding, bleeding badly.

It's not moving.

Something like this...

What would you do?

Pick it up and put it at the side? Report to an authority or whoever? Just walk past and pray for the best for the poor poor dog?

It's not just a normal road, but at a bus stop.

Like this...

Poor poor dog ): ): ):

Cross the road carefully "next time" ):

Found these on my dad's camera. He's working as I-don't-really-know-what, and when he was doing his rounding, he saw this and

i'm so glad that he picked it up and put it at a safer place.

May Allah bless you, Papa, and may you rest in peace little dog.

hey there, hello!

|| 12:22 PM

|| 12:17 PM

I'm in school, and I don't want to go home cause it's so frigging far and yeah I guess JUICE and I-S Magazine will make things better but still it's so friggin far, the only thing I'm looking forward to is my mummy and my cats at home and how can I forget, McCafe Double Chocolate Frappe, and you guys should try their Hot Chocolate, very much tau and I love my boyfriend but I don't like to make it so obvious y'know like touching his hands in front of everyone and hugging, erh, and all those romance I don't like lah like y'know we've broken up and patched up for thousands of times and our love is still very strong, so strong that I think he's my soulmate and that we'll last forever, and nobody can break us part, only God.

WTF I was just joking about the breaking up and patching up crap.
Those kind of relationship = merepek siolzxszxszxsz

I don't want to go home alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1,2,3,4

|| 12:36 AM

It's 12.34am now, and obviously it's after midnight.

I think there's something wrong with me.

Why do I alwaaaaaaaayyyyssss think of that particular person?

Oh that's right, cause I'm madly *beep*

8 things

Sunday, December 13, 2009 || 11:03 PM

Hello!
1. It's great to see Hamizan again, after such a long time.
2. I miss my dear boy, but I hope he's having so much fun with his new wife, and lots of yummy yummy food! He'll see me again soon, in heaven :)
3. Baby Zo is now a Mummy Zo :) She gave birth to three wonderful kittens, at 2.35am, 4am and 5am. Mummy Qeeza was with her the whole time, for assistance and love. I slept at 5.15am just to watch the whole beauty.
4. Tomorrow is my last paper, since I had TP last Monday. I have yet to study.
5. I'm getting R-15 :) Hopefully can bring it for a ride for kendarat on the 27th!
6. You should go to fuckyeahhlove. It's really sweet.
7. I got myself a shoe from Charles & Keith. Dope.

8. Harindra, you are a very funny person!

Dear boy,

Saturday, December 12, 2009 || 3:25 PM

He's gone out of my life
I love you dear boy. Everyone here will miss you. Y'know, we miss you already!
Rest in peace, my darling, Aisyah will visit you every single day/night okay.
Love you.

Labels: aisyah, with love

Amanda's

|| 3:22 PM

Amanda did this...

Love Letter 4

Dear aisyah,

You are extremly smexy and I slyly you! I want kiss your nose 18 times. You make my bottle burn with desire. When I first saw you, I stupidly stared at you and fell in love. Will you destroy out with me? Don`t let your parents discourage you, german singers are just jealous.

Yours forever, hari

My Dream Man

My "Dream Man" should, first of all be very beautiful and smart. He should have a physique like gareth barry, a profile like john carew, and the intelligence of a/an cat. He must be polite and must always remember to eat my juice, to tip his cow and to take my thighs when crossing the street. He should move intelligently, have a/an fat voice, and should always dress sideways. I would also like him to be a/an pretty dancer, and when we are alone he should whisper emotional nothings into my fingers and hold my tense magazine. I know a/an football is hard to find. In fact the only one I can think of is lloyd

Thursday, December 10, 2009 || 5:18 PM

Amanda's holiday just started, and I still have paper on Monday.
*think happy thoughts* I passed my bike TP :D

MADGLIBS, thank you Amanda...

|| 5:10 PM

Done by me,

Love Letter 3

Dear Amanda,

It has come to my mentos that you are the biggest girl/boy in the pencil case. My leg starts laughing a pen every time you speak. I would like to cooking if you want to go to the Christmas with me next Friday. If you read please eat me at the school in hours. I study you and everything about you.

quickly,
Harindra

Personal Ad

I enjoy long, charming walks on the beach, getting died in the rain and serendipitous encounters with pictures. I really like piña coladas mixed with semen, and romantic, candle-lit lights. I am well-read from Dr. Seuss to Cristiano Ronaldo. I travel frequently, especially to Science Lab, when I am not busy with work. (I am a housewife.) I am looking for book and beauty in the form of a French goddess. She should have the physique of Beyonce and the shirt of Amanda. I would prefer if she knew how to cook, clean, and wash my shorts. I know I’m not very attractive in my picture, but it was taken 2 days ago, and I have since become more classic.

Dream Lover (Bobby Darin)

Every night
I compose and pray
A dream musician will come my way
A song to hold in my fingernails
And know the magic of her notebooks

Because I want
A song
To call
My own
I want a dream musician
So I don`t have to
sing alone

Dream musician, where are you?
With a paper, oh, so cute
And a leg that I can hold,
Feel you near
As I grow hairy

Because I want
A song
To call
My own
I want a dream musician
So I don`t have to
bend alone

Someday, I don`t know how
I compose
She`ll hear my boom
Someway, I don`t know how
She`ll kick her
paper to me

Valentine`s Cards

Be my rose
---
love cards make the world go romantic
---
Pickachu says "I kiss you"
---
I love lips, red does too
---
You make my guy's boobs flutter

just because it's love.

|| 1:43 AM

lelove

missheroin

Because falling in love is amazing

Because being in an awesome relationship is, well, awesome

Because it's not love at first sight, that it makes me think it's more realistic than any other never-ending fairytale. And 'realistic' is good.

Because you're awesome like that, Harindra.

But if you're still single,

hey, you've got nothing to lose, cause what's the hoo-hah rush!

Live life to the fullest!

G'day

|| 12:55 AM

Good Morning world! Haha! I just woke up from a deep dead sleep, from 8pm. So that's 4.5h.
Happy girl, and since my CD2 Term Test is on Monday (which sucks big time, cause classmates would probably be having their holidays already!), I can continue sleeping cause tomorrow's LSM, and it's only at 2pm!

And it's Taufik Batisah's birthday today...
G'night, gonna sleep with my lovely best parents. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Lucky number seven.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009 || 3:38 PM

did you know,
that I've gotten my bike license? Last Monday, Dec 7th...
Thank you God, papa, mami, yan, harindra, and BBDC instructors for the guidance and endless support.
Thank you friends, for wishing me good luck and for congratulating me.
I feel like I've accomplished something big, HAHA! Perhaps it's cause it's a lifetime thing.
But whatever, I'm a happy girl.

7th December. which was also an important day!

This is pretty random, but for those who haven't seen my super boyish short hair, IT'S ABOUT TIME FOR US TO MEET-UP! *coughsBBSSgroupiscoughs.

Next, I wanna buy heels on Friday, so that I look hot for my awesome date.

Bold those you've done

|| 2:04 PM

So now you know, that I'm bored...
Read more »

Tuesday, December 8, 2009 || 9:56 PM

*cross fingers

|| 9:11 PM

Tabby's going home tonight... Her second song wasn't that pleasant...

pandainyer

|| 9:53 AM

Guess who's the smartypants who decided to do quite well for a 5% lecture quiz, but to screw up a term test that's worth 10%? Me. Well, the very least I'm still thankful, cause it's MBIO, hence the term test percentage is only 10%, and not a whole bloody 25%. The feeling of doing a paper badly sucks, and I've been feeling like this since the beginning of time! My best paper this sem is the lecture quiz, but that's not much lor please. Aiyo, school sucks. I want to drop out and be a young mom.

Tralalala!~

to all the fun we've had together :D

Sunday, December 6, 2009 || 4:27 PM

To those who texted me, or called me, but couldn't get through,

that's because my phone is with Harindra; the nasty phone died on us this morning. Harindra's phone is, too, dead, and so I can't contact him. So, anything, email me? Idk.

and recently I'm not into all those "I Love You!!" pictures, but happy thoughts and happy pictures instead!

So to all the fun we've had together,

to all the non-stop laughters and our stupid funny faces that are beautifully retarded,

to all the gigglings and dangerously shaking of shoulders whenever we have to control our laughters so as not to offend anyone,

to all the literal Laugh Out Loud, Rolling On The Floor Laughing, even Laughing My Ass Off,

to all the times you make me feel like the top of the world - so free, so awesome-and-warm feelings,

to the night calls where we'll talk about all the rubbish in the world because we were sooo tired yet we just didn't want to hang up,

to the first sight every single day, how I ALWAYS, up to date, giggle and all the sheepish smiles to see your face,

and to you,

to you-know-who!

loveandlifeinpictures

Labels: harindra, Love stories