Aisyah, 21, thinks that life is too short.
I don't believe in love, cause it makes people blind and crazy. I believe in Allah, & all the great things He has done. Want to know who's the perfect role model for a hijabi? Not me.
p/s click "life as it is" for archives.
p/p/s I'm a cat at night.
i can't believe what you to me, last night when we were aloneee -speechless by gaga
Wednesday, March 31, 2010 || 1:59 PM
No time to update! Going to Pasir Ris after this for Foli D'Amor practice. Fuck lah so far. Anyway, I'm in need of
- an imaginary friend - a friend who doesn't know me much or - a stranger who doesn't know me at all.
I don't want to bother my friends because....just because. I don't want to bother best friend cause he's working full-time and he is already so tired like that. I am tired of talking to myself because it's just so upsetting and pathetic. I don't mind an imaginary friend, really. So are you imaginary? Come on, you can tell me your problems too. double-u-tee-eff.
Currently listening to Glee's "Don't Stop Believing", and yeah, I guess I got to not stop believing and hold on to that feeling. Suffocated, choking. Just a breather, I promise tomorrow will be alright... Tonight's gonna be an early night for me.
I just have to stop thinking.
Goodnight, sleep tight, don't let the bedbugs bite.
(I need someone to chat with) & like Lis, I want to bump into a complete stranger and pour my heart out.
At 6pm, work ended. That's the third and last day of stock-taking at Daiso! Pay's in only on 5th May, how sad! Anyway best friend fetched me at 6am, like oh-am-gee how sweet can he be! And then we went off to the coffeeshop beside WestMall Mcdonald's for roti prataaaaaa And I'm home and awake till now. Weird, like as if I have slept for hours the night before. But yeah, I'm starting to sleepy now.
Anyway, I'm kind of weird nowadays. Not only have I been telling Hari about cute guys (a lot, recently), I would also go "omg omg" to him! Then we were laughing about how I've been treating him more than best friend - a GIRL bestfriend, y'know like sisters? haha! We're bestest of friend, almost like a boyfriend, I guess? The best I can ever wished forrrrr <3
Okay my baby Anja (my cat!) is disturbing me now. He just can't leave me alone. On my shoulder now, alahaiiiii so I shall go sleep with him now. Bye y'all. Loves!
Hello everyone. It's gonna rain soon, so I'm off to bed. Work tonight. Good day everyone!
forever young, I wanna be forever young~
|| 2:21 AM
It's 15 minutes past 2 now, and I'm still not yet asleep. I've been yawning a lot, and my stomach was making hell lots of noise as well. I guess I got to go now. People, please take care of yourself. Always remember that there are many people who love you, and that you matter to someone(s). Life is short, so enjoy it.
Goodnight, sleep tight, don't let them bedbugs bite
Y'all still remember the old Hari? The one when he and I just got together, and he was still so thin and, err, odd?
Eh no eh? Haha!!!! Just kidding homieeee, this one:
LOOK AT THAT! HE'S SO THIN LAST TIME! WHAT HAVE I (or my mom) DONE TO HIM!?!?!
Whatever it is, I still prefer the him now, with fats and muscles :)
Life has been great to me. Of course there's hiccups every now and then, but hey, life isn't called 'life' without that, correct? This is super random but in the van just now on the way back home from work, I was thinking about something lame called 'education'. Lame, so so lame, yet it's something we can't runaway from, sadly. So after much thoughts, there is only one question worth considering.
What is my definition of happiness?
I know what some of you might think - Aisyah, are you using your brain or heart? Judgmental people, please answer this question first (ask yourself what YOUR def, not MY def, duh) before judging me and talking crap :) For example, just because I told some people that I like the idea of being a 'teenage mom', God knows what (negative) comments I received. Yeah, it doesn't really matter, because it's their opinions, so I respect that :) So...
WHAT? Out of topic? yeah and I'm so lazy to type sooooo much, so here's some old pictures I would like to share with y'all :)
Eh I feel like typing more. Tomorrow's last day of work (bear in mind I just got to work for 3 days, it's a super-temporary position: stock-taking at Daiso), at IMM from 10pm to 6am. IMM's Daiso is the biggest, so urgh, I'm going to drink Redbull before work, and one during work. Kendarat is only on June, pfft I can't wait for any "events" in between, like karaoke, perhaps?
Laaaaaaast thing before I post this,
I love my friends. I love my boyfriend (Harindra, to be specific). I love my cats, all 12 of them + Mela + Zorro. I love my family, the most most most of course. I love kids. I love Oreo/Cookies 'N' Cream. I love my boyfriend's family. I love myself. I love life. I love hugs.
My right eye going to tembel. I need a hug ): SAKIT Y'KNOW WHEN WANT TO CLOSE ITTTT!
Got this from a friend's blog, and it's interesting though it's lengthy. Bold the ones you've done, and colour the ones that you want/wish to do.
Click 'Read More' to, yeah, read more.
so...at the end of the`list, what can you conclude?
Hello everyone who reads my blog but simply refuses to tag at the tagboard :D
Today has been good. (I know I'm being paranoid, but whether it's "today" or "yesterday", I can't be bothered anymore cause it's pretty much the same difference! Yes, I'm this paranoid)
The day started with me waking up at 6am to study for my supplementary paper today. I know I know, it's last minute work and blahblah, but I guess some things can't be changed? And I came in late for the paper on purpose too. It was alright, and I'm really hoping for a 'P' grade so that I don't have to retake that goddamn module next next next (+next) semester.
Amanda came over and we had a movie marathon. And Mami gave us lotsa foooooood. I love my mother..
The movies are amaaaaaazing. I slept during 'Meet the Robinsons' though, cause of the lunch. You know, the whole after-lunch effect. Anyway, it's funny how each movie links to one another. You see, Eric (The Little Mermaid) guessed that Ariel's real name was Mildred, and in Meet the Robinsons, the orphanage home lady's name was Mildred, and Orphan, well, Esther was from an orphanage. Cool, aye? Not much of a big deal, I know, but it's cool, so you shut up! Haha Oh-am-gee I love The Little Mermaid so much.
Thanks Amanda, for spending this lovely day together! I love you!
I just feel like writing a long post today, no idea why. I know people won't be bothered to read every single thing, but weird how I lloooooovvveeee reading my own blog when I'm bored, especially alittlebang.blogpot.com. It's on private now, only meant for one person to see...
Why am I seeing more and more couples breaking up after years of being together? I'm not talking about 2 years relationship, or 3 years. Neither am I talking about a 3 years relationship with regular breakup-patchup cycle. I'm talking about serious deal, 3-7 years of strong relationship that's based on love. How can they be possibly be bored of each other? It's just that, whenever I get too happy with Harindra, I'll hear of stories about sister lah, friends lah, all ah, break up after long-"lasting" relationship. None of my business and I shouldn't be affected, but tsk, I am affected! I am very affected! They were in my shoes before, they knew how it felt to be sooo sooo friggin' happy in love. They were like me, so positive, oh-am-gee so happy together. They knew each other so well, they met everyday, the communicated everyday, and by communicating I mean listen and talk and understand. That's very important. They thought they can't live without each other, they couldn't see the future without having the other one around. Then, may I ask, how can a relationship fail, after all that? I don't bother asking those puppy love or those who treats love like it's so easy and all, superficial nonsense. I'm asking those who, yeah, have been in a serious r/s.
It's seriously scary, not that I'm gonna expect anything in the future or whatsoever, it's just the horrid thoughts. Thoughtssss.
Harindra is my boyfriend, and we're turning 2 soon. Not so soon, but soon enough :) Of all the 365days x2, we've not met for only 10 days, plus minus 1 day. Imagine that. Soon, he'll be in National Service. I wish him all the best, and may God bless him. I can't wait to go Darul Arqam with him :) Guess what? Yeah, I'm a happy girl.
Don't take ANYTHING personally, alright? It's just my utmost random thoughts, and I think my period is coming soon, thus the whole 'oh loveeee' mood. Just for your info, it's obvious enough that I'm so grateful that my first relationship is still, Alhamdulillah, doing fine and this whole 'love' issue hasn't been giving me any trouble. I take serious things/issues like love, well, seriously. People who don't and think they are all that, they piss me off.
So this is the long long post! I'm satisfied now. Gdnight! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYIKIN! LOVE YOU!
I AM SO BORED (STILL REFUSE TO STUDY FOR CD2 SUPP, HAHA) AND I SHALL TELL YOU WHAT I'M DOING NOW.
I AM WAITING FOR HARINDRA. WE'RE GOING TO WESTMALL FOR A WHILE TO SEE THE PET SHOP AND SURVEY SOME STUFF, AND AND THEN WE'RE GOING TO MCDONALDS FOR HOT CHOCOLATE. YUMMMMM SIP SIP SIP
GOODDAY EVERYONE. I HOPE I PASS TOMORROW'S SUPP PAPER. CD2 IS NOT WORTH RETAKING, CAUSE CHOOI SUCKS.
Starting tomorrow, the whole week is going to be busy. Here's the highlights, of birthdays, exams, whatever events, be it important or not. Hehe
Monday: CD2 Supplementary Paper
Tuesday: Syikin's 19th, B&J Free Cone Day, Harindra's 2A TP, Working at Daiso@Vivo 10pm to 6am
Wednesday: Apitos practice
Thursday: Working at Daiso@Sembawang Shopping Centre 10pm to 6am
Saturday: Apitos Jamming Session @ Reis Cafe after 8pm
Anyway yesterday was kind of alright. Had Bloco picnic, more of a gathering for Futsal, that is. Then it was a short session of games, and then we left. Simpang Bedok, and saved seats for the rest of Bloco who were coming. Nothing much if you were not able to come. It's just refreshing to see everyone again.
December this year I MIGHT, might, go to Korea for holiday. Winter season. :) Cik Joh asked me to do my homework, as in, research and stuff. Pray hard. Real snow :)
I'm going to work at Daiso for 3 nights (23rd, 25th and 29th of March) for supershortterm sales assistant. Sales Assistant, aye? Well, I'm doing stock-taking for these 3 nights, and the pay's really high! Let's say, more than $10 per hour, and I'm going to earn $200+ for that three nights. Nights eh, not evening. Haha screw you!
I can't wait to get the money, all for my cats :) Once my cats stuff are done, my tuition's pay, as well as my kendarat's pay, will go to my beautiful parents and boyfriend!
Alright now, time for some tumblr sharin'! LOVE OF THE SEASON: SWEATER
AND I JUST DISCOVERED THAT THERE'S THIS TUMBLR, FUCKYEAHSWEATERS, and damn, jizzy in mah pantsy. Yeah definitely nice for my eyes to see, but nah, all these can wait. My responsibilities towards my kids are more importante than, these :)
I'll do anything for you Baby, anything you want me to Oh, I'll do anything for you Oh, I'm sticking with you -The Velvet Underground
G'night my homies. Goodnight sleep tight don't let the bedbugs bite zzz
Juno was fantastic! It's pretty embarrassing to know that I'm one of the last few souls in the world to watch it. Hah! Juno was such a cool girl, and I'm turned on by the fact she loved the company of Mark, this adult guy who's married. Well, maybe cause Jason Bateman is the actor for that character. Anyway, I think the movie's awesome, probably not the lack of responsibility these young teenagers have (I mean, come on, they are teenagers after all) and Mark's attitude, but I think, yes I repeat this again, the movie's awesome. It touches a serious issue, yet in a very cool, relaxed laidback attitude. Well, I've finally watched it, so those few souls who haven't watched this yet, what the hell?
I mean no harm.
I want to go to sleep.
No I should study for supp paper.
BABY IM SORRY TO MAKE YOU CRY. I LOVE YOU 4EVA. Hahahah hakpui
Wednesday, March 17, 2010 || 6:45 PM
Can I bitch a little? Just a little, promise. I find it irritating if people blog about their boyfriends alllll the time, but when in reality, they are always fighting. And no, I'm not jealous if your boyfriend is fucking sweet (but always fighting with you over the littlest things) or if he's whatever. Like come on, me? Jealous? Wrong person. But yes, my friends and I think that these kind of people are insecure about their relationship, and so I advise you, my friends, don't make it as if 'love' is that hard, really. Remind yourself that life is beautiful. Tsk Well for me, I don't really like publisizing my love story, only when of course, I'm in the super "lovey" mode after midnight, tu pon not to the extend of "showing off" my boyfriend. It's the "I know he knows" kind of thing.
Tsk Don't get me wrong though. I'm happy for those happy couples. Ah bliss~
Ah I sound pretty mean =/ sorry if you think I'm talking to you! I'm not (: I think
PAINTED MY HEART THE COLOUR OF LOVE. I STAY UP AT NIGHT AND COUNT THE STARS. YOUR EYES STARE AT ME AS THERE EXISTS A BOND BETWEEN US MY HEART IS THE DESTINATION OF YOUR LOVE. IF I HELD YOU , YOU'D KNOW IT'S YOUR LOVE I DESIRE. IT'S ME WHO HIDES BEHIND YOUR SMILE.
I watched a Bollywood movie yesterday. Dulha Mil Gaya. Kinda good, yknow.
Haha wtf at this post, right? :D
Did you know, that yesterday was the first time I ever watched Harry Potter And The Half Blood Prince? Used to watch the other previous movies on the first day, but due to the bad reviews for this one, particularly, I decided to give it a miss. Yeah, I think I saved a lot of money by renting this one. Oh, well, Harry Potter series is thousand times better than the Twilight Saga. Movie wise, that is.
I've also rented Juno and Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging. Just what has gotten into me?
Ok side-track a little bit, I'm at someone's facebook, and her friends are actually those kind whom we love to call, "SENANG DAPAT" and it's amusing how her friends, and even herself, call guys 'fucker'. It's just too contradicting, that's all.
I watched The Time Traveler's Wife and Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street with Harindra just now ;D The Time Traveller's Wife is awesome, like awesome damn good and it's extra meaningful. Sweeney Todd, is kind of good. I was pretty bored at first, but things got better after a while.
No hot chocolate to accompany us (Mind you it was so cold and it was raining outside!) and no Cookies 'n' Cream ice-cream too (the irony, I know), but all in all I had such a good day today I love life, for life has been so beautiful...
He did well for the exams, I didn't :) He's working full-time now, me? Don't even get me started :) He texted me saying that _____, just like how this guy comforting the girl (left picture). He made me feel extraordinary, again. I think this is the difference between having someone all to yourself, and having just friends around you. Thanks pal. I shall see you tonight, xoxo.
Listening to this song right now :) It's such a romantic video (& song) and it's Shayne Ward people, Shayne-Ward. Oh and the it's a horny video. Look at how they are eating each other up! I like. And I bet this is not my first time posting this video. Haha how bout that! Enrique Iglesias (scroll down) and now another sex "god" on my blog.
Listening to songs like this just make you want to lie down in bed all night, with your loved one(s)' arms around you, right right? Boyfriend, girlfriend, sister, mother, whoever! (': Just admit it, it's cause you're too in love with Shayne Ward as he's the handsomest botak guy around! Move over, bitch, Hari's gonna kick your butt cause he's going NS soon.
(psssst it's true to me)
I got a feeling the langkawi trip is pretty much over, cause no one's booking anything. Everything's not confirmed yet, why oh why? We might be able to witness the beautiful God's creation like the above. No, not the video, but the picture just above this paragraph. Isn't it sooooo gorgeous? Imagine you and the lovely people around you lying down on the beach just looking at all these. Jizzy?
If only I could go there with Harindra, just the two of us. But nah, we are not married yet and it's better if we go with the lovely friends we have, anyway, correct!? Tomorrow maybe going to Sentosa with them, but y'know, it all depends on my results. Fail one and that's it, I shall see you guys when school reopens or something. Loser.
Good luck friends
Now what about this picture?
Whoever who owns this place must be
I'm no sex-maniac or anything of sort, but doesn't this place just scream and moan
"Open Sex Every Single Day" because I love you and this place is too good to be true? Well, Haikal, my Bloco friend, gotta agree with this, amirite amirite! Okay amirite? That's just retarded. I still think that this is one of the best *insert the right phrase/word* ever :') Omg I'm actually tearing.
Just kidding. Let's see what else is on my tumblr...
My room's gonna be something like that, without the chasing lights, of course. Off course, same difference. IKEA lightings, eff-tee-double-u and I won't put the "shelf" directly above my head. Seriously. Ok y'know I have NOTHING to blog about yet I can't seem to stop typing and finding excuses to continue blogging.